My sentence, my word…

February 7th, 2010

Last month, I wrote a post about “finding my sentence“…well, I am still looking, but some more reflections on short blurbs that can capture a life have surfaced.

Recently on NPR, they did a story about the “six word memoir“…a project of Smith magazine springboarding off the legend that novelist Ernest Hemingway, when asked to write a full story in six words responded: “For Sale: baby shoes, never worn.” I love this! I love ideas captured into an essence…distilled into a simple, short, sweet sentence…or phrase.

In Eat, Pray, Love, a memoir by Elizabeth Gilbert, she talks about how cities all have their “one word”…Rome is sex, D.C. is power, New York is achieve, Stockholm is conform…and I was intrigued. What’s my one word?

So now I have a greater challenge to finding my sentence…it’s finding my word.

For my six-word memoir, I thought mine might be “He gave her the greatest gift”…referring, of course, to my husband and my daughter. But, that’s less about me and more about other people. Although, they are the most important people because of those things…she is such a treasure, such a gift, always dazzling me with her beauty and brightness…and, without him, I would not have her. Still, I wonder if my sentence, my memoir, my word, should be less about what others give me and more about my contribution to this world.

Guess I will have to give it more thought.

Suck it, iPad!

January 27th, 2010

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Today, Apple unveiled its newest toy, the iPad. Seems like an overgrown iPhone or iPod Touch. Why not just use a small laptop? Meh.

OK, so maybe I am bitter because I still don’t even have an iPhone (of course, I do want one). Apple products are great. I am working on a MacBook right now and cherish my first-generation iPod (I believe in holding on to technology as long as you can—within reason—for environmental and economical reasons).

But, what about this groovy little invention (and campaign) I came up with back in the ’90s as a first-year design student?

Ladies and Gentlemen…I give you…the “ExZENsion”…years before its time. Indeed.

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Bicycle Diaries

January 15th, 2010

I just read this amazing book—Bicycle Diaries—by David Byrne and I feel like I’ve been to some great cities—Berlin, Istanbul, Buenos Aires. OK, not really. Nothing takes the place of actually going somewhere, but I did thoroughly enjoy being transported, in mind, to these cities through Byrne’s musings on his experiences moving about by bicycle.

He’s right when he says that nothing gives the unique vantage point of being on a bike. You get to really be among the life of the city, just a little above pedestrian level in terms of sight lines, but right in the mix. You get to shimmy through traffic, navigate narrow, winding streets that would be a nightmare by car. I love it!

When I lived in DC, I commuted to work and around town on my bike. It was the best. I did a bit of this in Chicago, too, but didn’t get into it at that point in my life. It was only in DC that I really was all bike all the time. DC is a great city for biking, on one hand, because it’s pretty small and the parts you’d want to go to are even smaller. But, the drivers in DC are rude and not particularly bike-friendly folks, as a whole. Everybody is so important. One morning on my way to work, I somehow wiped out. I fell off my bike and actually wrecked it. Looking back, I think maybe I was actually hit by a car. I mean, how would I just wipe out, out of the blue? It was pretty early in the morning, like 630 or something. I was on the way to the gym. Oh well. I survived.

In his book, Byrne makes all kinds of cool, thought-provoking observations, which I’ve taken the liberty of noting below. But, please go out and get this book. It’s the kind of book that’s sure to hit everyone in a slightly different way. In later posts, I may try to expound on what some of these most memorable snippets meant to me.

It sounds like some form of meditation, and in a way it is. Performing a familiar task, like driving a car or riding a bicycle, puts one into a zone that is not too deep or involving. The activity is repetitive, mechanical, and it distracts and occupies the conscious mind, or at least part of it in a way that is just engaging enough but not too much—it doesn’t  cause you to be caught off guard. It facilitates a state of mind that allows some but not too much of the unconscious to bubble up.

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…the fate of the CD, and of recorded music in general. Stefan [Sagemeister] has just been to South Korea, which he describes as being a few years ahead of us in some respects—he says no one there buys CDs anymore. In fact, when he wanted to buy a CD copy of something he’d heard he had to go to a specialty shop to obtain it—as one would in Europe or North or South America to buy a recording on vinyl.

We wonder about the fate of the images and design associated with LPs and CDs—something he’s been involved with quite a few times. He reminds me that the linking of image and music is a result of the fact that vinyl scratched easily, so it needed sturdy board packaging. And until relatively recently even those packages didn’t come with images, credits, liner notes, etc.—music packaging was originally generic. However, I found out that when Alex Steinweiss designed an early album sleeve for Beethoven’s Eroica symphony, the package caused sales to increase 800 percent. So design is nothing to sneeze at…But it might soon be back to just the audio without all the rest of it thanks to the digital world, where many folks buy digital versions of just the one song they like…

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The two biggest self-deceptions of all are that life has a “meaning” and that each of us in unique. One can see that evolving a built-in obscuring mechanism for those depressing and inevitable insights might be of practical use…

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One theory regarding language is that it is primarily a useful tool born out of a need for control…what’s amazing to me is that if we accept this idea, then what may have begun as an instrument of social and economic control has now been internalized by us as a mark of being civilized.

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Living “in” a story, being part of a narrative, is much more satisfying than living without one. I don’t always know what narrative it is, because I’m living my life and not always reflecting on it…

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Creative work is…a machine that digs down and finds stuff, emotional stuff that will someday be raw material that can be used to produce more stuff, stuff like itself—clay to be available for future use.

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Any kind of taxonomy might be as good or valid as any other, though we might not know for sure until some time in the future when a scientific paper “discovers” that hexagonal or bulbous shapes, or similar colors or textures are functions that in some way determine content, in the way that the form of a DNA molecule defines and is its function. Form doesn’t follow function in that case—form is function.

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The past is not a prologue to the present; it is the present—morphed a bit, stretched, distorted, and with different emphasis. It’s a structurally similar, though very much contorted, version of the present. Therefore in a sense, time—history—can, at least in our heads, flow in either direction, because deeply, structurally nothing has really changed. We think we’re going in a line through time, making progress, advancing, but we might be going in circles.

What we call history could be viewed as a record of how basic social forms have distorted or morphed. It simply changes shape, but the underlying patterns and behaviors are always there, under the surface—as they are in biological forms.

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Finding my sentence

January 5th, 2010

A client is Facebooking and often posts interesting articles about health, fitness, motivation, etc. Yesterday, they posted a link to an article by Dan Pink on Oprah.com. Don’t make fun. It’s interesting stuff.

I don’t know that I need motivation in particular for anything, I mean, I work plenty hard, as the structure of my life right now allows (taking care of a young child and doing professional work, too). Maybe I need help in finding motivation to eat less in order to slim down, since I don’t need help motivating myself to work out—I love doing that! But, sometimes I feel frustrated and lame being a “work-at-home” mom and I found a light of help and rejuvenation in that arena from this article.

I know I’ve made the right decision, for me, deep down, in choosing to work just part time, for myself, so that I can better nurture my young child. But, sometimes, it is really a difficult and thankless job. Sure, you will likely see your child grow up to be beautiful and brilliant, but day-to-day, along the way, there are alot of demands, and weird toddler stuff. As cute as toddlers are, as loving and empathetic as they can be, they can also be so id driven, not really knowing any better. So, #2 in Pink’s list really hit home for me.

Obviously, I am “my own boss” because I am an independent consultant. But, alot of times, I feel like my kid is my boss. Ouch! Pink says “we can become passive and inert in mundane situations” and raising a young child and keeping a home can be very mundane, indeed. I know, I know, children are miracles and they learn so much every day and are so wonderful, it’s true, but there is alot of the mundane, too. Pink’s advice that “It’s about exploring what you can do differently to make your role, whatever it is, more interesting…” and to “take control (if only in a small way) of your time, efforts and responsibilities” really spoke to me!

Pink’s #3, to find that one sentence that capture’s your purpose is great, too. I am going to try and consider that and pin it down. I want to be creative, compassionate, cool, flexible, strong…but how to combine that into one concept?

My Favorite Albums of 2009

January 4th, 2010

1) Hold Time ~ M. Ward
Simple songs, transcendent playing and production. Rave on!


2) Message to Garcia ~ Visqueen
Just got into this, like last week (SHAME!), so might be the newness factor. BUT, Hand Me Down is an amazing little rock-pop number that goes great with running, so that counts for alot in my book.


3) Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix ~ Phoenix
I don’t care that their song was used in a Cadillac commercial.


4) Actor ~ St. Vincent
Pretty, interesting, dark, distorted.


5) Heartbeat Radio ~ Sondre Lerche
Fave track: I Guess It’s Gonna Rain Today


6) Super Furry Animals ~ Dark Days/Light Years
This album is just so fun! I thought they were saying “In honor of drugs” when they were saying “Inaugural Trams”…


7) Midnight at the Movies ~ Justin Townes Earle
He’s got his mama’s eyes and more talent than his daddy, IMHO.


8) Yo La Tengo ~ Popular Songs
Yo La Tengo sometimes (but not always) annoys me, but I like this record alot. It sounds like what a “Best of Yo La Tengo” should sound like.


9) Noble Beast ~ Andrew Bird
He must eat like a bird because he’s so thin. And he whistles like a bird, too. Creative tunes, intriguing lyrics. Magic.


10) Truelove’s Gutter ~ Richard Hawley
Sexy, smooth, subtle, English.


11) Wilco the Album ~ Wilco
I like Wilco, so it’s got to be on the list, though this is not their finest.


Looking ahead…

What I’m really more excited about is the upcoming release of The Watson Twins album, Talking To You, Talking to Me and Broken Bells, a collaboration between James Mercer (Shins) and DJ Danger Mouseboth of which I’ve previewed and am digging.

In & Out in 2010

January 4th, 2010

Well, it’s “Day One” of building new habits. Report card so far (it’s 8:59 am)=B-. I did do some yoga, I have been both patient with and attentive to my child, however, I ate a grilled cheese for breakfast. It was not wholly wrong or unhealthy, but maybe not the most mindful, low-calorie choice I could have made. It’s a process…a journey.

Yesterday, yoga at Mind the Mat was amazing. The instructor was a very fresh-faced, twenty-something guy who could not have weighed more than 120 lbs. It was great having a young guy instructor. I’ve never had that. He was good. The poses were challenging, but therapeutic. There were many times I wanted to cry because of the realizations and catharsis I was feeling. There were times during the two hours that I obssessed about trying some kind of cherry marshmallow sundae I remembered seeing on the menu at the nearby Dairy Godmother custard shop. Somehow I talked myself down from that. Instead, doing lots of twisting moves, I focused on trying to purify my body and my thoughts. I got emotional when I came to the realization that eating so much and being so obsessed with foods was not being kind to myself. Being kind to myself was being healthy.

Enough about that, though. The image today shows my typical morning drink of choice: Tazo Awake tea. (I sometimes drink coffee on the weekends, but the tea is my mainstay.) I wanted to play with making my everyday objects into designed compositions. It just now occurred to me what the empty cups could symbolize. I often feel a little lonely and isolated as a work-at-home mom. Many moms I encounter I feel somehow that I don’t relate that well to. I know I should probably open myself up to more variety, perhaps, though. Much of the time I enjoy the aloneness, and my daughter is pretty good company, in general. Still, I do long for more comraderie at times.

So, the overall point of this post is to publish my “In & Out” for 2010 list. I love “Best of” lists, resolutions, and such. My music “Best of” for 2010 is coming soon.

Resolutions are “out”…”In and Out” lists are “in”!

What’s on your list?

Out: Wasting time on parenting blogs
In: Bolstering professional skills

Out: Emotional eating
In: Yoga

Out: Daily trips to the grocery store
In: Meal planning

Out: “Free” analog cable
In: Roku and Clicker.com

Out: The gym
In: DVDs and hitting the road with the stroller

Out: Chipotle
In: Pimenton de la Vers

Out: Stouts (OK…not really, but more of the I-IPAs instead)
In: Imperial IPAs

Out: Compulsive participation in social media
In: Nurturing meaningful connections

Before I clean up my act…

January 3rd, 2010

I am about to go to a 2-hour yoga detox workshop, after which I will not eat junk as a matter of course, but only as a treat. It will be very hard for me. I actually don’t eat alot of junk, as in processed, crappy foods. For example, the cookie pictured above is Whole Foods’ version of the Oreo. No hydrogenated oils, probably all organic sugar and stuff like that. But, I need to slim down a bit, and so, I’ve got to get serious about things. I used to be pretty damn fine before I gave birth. (I know, what a lame excuse!) The birth itself and the pregnancy aren’t what did me in, instead, it’s hanging out with a toddler. Makes you want to snack. You go from one thing to the next. It’s hard to stay mindful and be focused. It’s hard to hold on to goals. Sometimes, it’s just plain frustrating. And sometimes you just become a human garbage disposal and eat what they leave behind. Not any more. Time to get mindful. Time to set my intention. And my intention will not end with something to frivolous as weight loss, no. It will transcend to being kinder and more compassionate to others, and then, too, to myself. It’s self-abusive to dump foods into your mouth unthoughtfully, and as a food lover, it’s disrespectful to the food, too. I am good at powering through tough workouts and such—I ran twleve miles yesterday. But, I am not so good at quiet subtlety and control. So, these things I will work on going forward.

Girl’s night in

January 2nd, 2010

Husband’s out at a basketball game. I enjoyed a grilled cheese and horseradish sandwich with fries and mayoketch with a Lagunitas Little Sumpin’ Extra ale. Started out watching an old Tony Bourdain episode on Sicily, now watching a serious movie, highly-acclaimed Ballast. Sometimes I like to be alone. It’s nice.

Happy New Site!

January 1st, 2010

It’s 1:30 in the morning, first day of 2010, and I’m publishing my fresh, new Web site. (I originally had a graphic designating link to this blog on the home page, but for now, I created a “hidden link” like those “Easter eggs” on DVDs, since I’m not sure just how public I want the blog to be…just yet…)

It’s really fresh and new because I pulled it together today, in just a few hours. Something got into me and I had to move forward, quickly and change it up. I’ve had the old design for several years and never really had the time to work on it because of actual paying projects and, well, life.

So, welcome! I am going to try and consolidate all my blogging here, too…

I’m kind of excited, but it’s really late for me to be up so I’m not going to be saying anything too deep or clever at this moment in time. Also, I know it’s pretty damn dorky to be publishing a Web site/blog late night on New Year’s Eve, but, hey, that’s me at this point in my life. Also, the site is a work in progress, of course…isn’t everything always when its your own? (ie, not for a paying client on deadline)

I’m very happy and grateful about recent realizations I’ve come to, and I have a feeling 2010 is going to be a special year!

Time to go rest up for it…